I'm already sick & tired.

Doing this final profession report made me realise/understand a lot of things. I swear if we don't get a decent grade for this, I'll take a broom stick and shove it up G codner's ass. Its really wasting sooo much time.I've really been struggling to like read all our project brief, alternative design project, search the whole Google just to write one small section of it and I've to think and think and then write.

Its really a fucking pain in the ass. I'm really really really tired out. For some of you, it seems to be like, write 10 pages only ma. Very easy to do la. I've nothing to say then. It just sickens me when I really starts to contribute a much larger part and time. I've wasted like a lot of time. It seems invincible to some people. They just dont know how much you've really put your ass into it. I don't want long2 to chew up every part of it. At least I'm pretty sure I'm doing at least 30% of the whole bloody report. I'm confident to say that. I have grammar mistake all over the place and struggling to write bits an pieces. I'm pretty sure its worth all of it. and I'M TRYING. I'm not trying to blog here to make you people pity me. NOPE. HELL NO. This is my blog. I blog what I want. I blog my blog. Its for me to one day read back all of this and remember this bitter taste of hardcore.

I need to write a report myself soon. Maybe next semester or the coming semester and I should learn how to do it myself. Sooner or later, its a need to write good report. I'm doing a pretty bad job but at least I'm trying to help out as much as I could possibly do.

Maybe I'm not as clever as some clowns, but I'm sure I'm doing a good work here. At least I'm trying. making blank and meaningless promises is not gonna help or contribute any bit to anything we do here. I'm really grateful that my parent are really happy with my result and cheering me u all the time. Its just things that money cant buy you.

One last phase thing to write and it's almost done.


I'm tired..

like really....

my body is going to break down soon.

I;m like dead tired now but I dont know why I still feel energetic. HAHAHAHA>.. weird right? I went to bed at around 2-ish. I just couldnt close my eyes. Things just pops into my head. Thinking way too much I guess. I only get to close my eyes at around 4. Then I had to wake up at 4.45 to watch UEFA final. Damn.. It sunk my heart. LIKE FUCK OFF. haiizzz.. Bo pian la.

There's always next year. My love for liverpoool will never change. HAHAHA!

Project are making me go nuts. Have to meet up probably this saturday and sunday to get the project done. Presentation again next week then after that, exam. OH shoott.. Not even prepared yet. =(((((((((((


I cant wait to go back.





This is the old one. Who cares? We're like 5 times UEFA CL champions ok? like 5 kali!! Just unfortunate today. that fugin idiot INZAGHI! retire la you retard. use hand to score pun take malu. pui.

it hurts

It hurts when your not meant to be.
It hurts when you love each other.
It hurts when you dont get to be with who you want to.

It hurts deep inside.

god..


whyy?

my sudden mood change

Just 5 mins ago, I was browsing thru the old pics I have in my lappy. I suddenly miss my brothers. after like nearly 4 months here, I start to feel the need of having my brothers here with me. I miss you guy now. I hate it when I dont have those atmosphere here anymore. We used to swear at each other. curse and curse. Damn, I really miss all of that. I really do. How I wish I could turn back time and let that repeat itself. We used to fight & quarrel alot. Its part of growing up. here are some of the pics I would like to share with everyone.

I'll be back in 1 month's time, We'll have a blast. I hope. I hopeee..

just for you elenaa lim =P

Oh well. It's a stressful sat night. its already the end of week 11. =( Exams are coming really really soon. just after week 13. I'm reli freaked out. esp maths. I jsut have t start relearning everything by myself. I'm worried i'll flunk the subj, I really cant imagine myself flunking it. I'll be reli reli fucked up. THere's no way I'll let myself do that. NOpe. Not anymore.

I'm going to uni tomorrow agn, trying to finish up my structural final project. finishing it sooner is better. There is a need to finish it coz if not, I wouldnt have any time to really study. Im really worried. really really ok?



okok. lets fnish sum this up. summary : If I study now, I might finish studying it. So that is what I'm going to do FULLSTOP


now for the elenaaa lim part. Since I promised that I'll blog abt you. here you go. HAHAHA!! I guess we started to really chat and know each other better only after I came here. Oh well, HAHAH!! she's the girl there, on my link. banyak banyak lovers one. HAHAHAHA!! Dont really know what to say tho. I'll just post the pictures of the hot hot her and then match it up with mine? AHAHAHA!!




HAHA.. I'm using the other hand, but its almost the same . (=


HAHAHAHAHA!! alrighty. here goes all of the pictures.












HAHAHAHAH!! here you go lena. hope you love them! HAHAHAHHA!! loads of love. goodnightyy.. (= you must, coz I took a lot of time taking those pictures! If you wonder when I took it, just. 10 minutes ago.

zzz

I purposely made this look like a traffic light HAHAHAHAH!!


























It took me ages. I spent my first night in uni. till 10pm finishing this shit. its a lot of work for me. i'm worned out and I hope its worth it.

bo $$$ is very the "hooww chammm aaa!!"

this is what people do in boring lectures!


same goes to this one..


THE BEST FRIED RICE IN MEBOURNE. some say in victoria, others say Australia. (=

I just had my shower. its around 10.30 now. I'm starting to do my works now. =(( so many assignments to hand up. Really fucking tired. Really am.But after all the test and all, I hink hard work really pays off. I've never been working maybe 20% of the works I'm actually doing now. I'm putting in my effort and its paying off.

IT FEELS DAMNN GOOOOOOOOOODDD!!!

I'm really pecah now.

I'm doing my crappy works now.

The last 2-3 was expected to be really hectic and guess what? I'm right. all the final reports needs to be handed up + the exams, we still need to spare time doing it. ARGHHHH!!!

Its still alright, as long as I know that i'll be going back really soon. counting counting...

countt...

couunnttt...

cooounnttiinnggg..

*blink blink*

Oh, its 21st already!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Another great night.

Last night I went to have dinner with mich and then went over to matching's place. the scenery damn nice. lik wow. after a while, we went over to BLVD. rnb & house style. first time I actually tasted 151, its shit. shit shit shit. the burning is the greatest 1 shot of my life. I not only have one, but had 2. (= omogosh, Maybe its bcoz my daddy's gene in running thru my veins and artery. =D

oh well. not much to do now. gonna slack one again.

broke.

I declare myself "broke". HAHAHA!!

Not as in broken heart; mine is in one sexy piece kept properly but its as in money wise. =.=


your Q would be,"Where did the money fly? "

My 'without a second thought' answer would be," I've no fuggin idea!"






I woke up and went to uni at 12.30. It was a pretty boring day that just went by. oh well.. Doesn't matter as long as time starts to fly, I'm pleased with it. I'm going back really really soon. cant wait.

I feel like sleeping now already but I cant!! I've to at least do something before the tutorial tomorrow or else I'll be in a deep shit. D abachi guy might come to haunt us once again. =x

I watched a lil episode on youtube yesterday. It was jacky wu's again. It talks about cao ge, tank and some other girl's past. Its just really touching. They deserve their fame right now. The story about how they suffered just to be who they are today. Sometimes it just irritates me to hear myself moan about some little tiny thing I've to do. Imagine how they suffered and how much they contributed and the effort they put in to be who they are today. Cao ge actually did inspire me.

He's malaysian btw (: . He had to wait for 3 yrs to actually be able to finally release his super super nice cd. What a right time to do it right? why? coz I just started to really love music. I used to be an alien like everyone said. Never bother and actually never bonded in the music world. He had no money to even get himself a cup of instant noodle. Imagine that he had to sleep in the recording studio and all those stuff. Its not because he doesn't have money or so. Its just the determination within a person to achieve or accomplish what they really want is just inspiring.

I've learned a lesson that if you don't ever fall, You'll never appreciate & acknowledge the feeling of being on top of the world ; most importantly, On top of you yourself! soo..

Its study time.


no pain no gain. no study no career. no career no money. no money no girl. no girl no family.

no family = no love.

done with another fuckin stress day.

oh gosh. I had to study on my birthday becoz I have 2 test d day after my exam. gosh. but anyway, thanks to everyone who sent their greetings to me.

you guys are just reli sensational. I really cant name all of you.. Today is gonna be a day off for me. I'm reli tired and lazy. I just want to slack tonight. am I allowed to? yes i am. (: