all over again. repeatedly & once more.

The title says everything. Nevertheless, its a decision I made and i'm gonna stand by it. I think I'm alright. Was kinda shocked and feeelinggg suckkkyy.. But I guess its ok, Its expected already one I guess. what to do. Maybe it was never meant to be. I feel really down, sad and heart broken once again. sighs. Cant expect much too. I was never there for her. shrugs. It feels bad but i'm gonna still live for myself and my family and and my friends.


Study is still my main priority. I woke up late today coz I cant sleep last night. Turning here and there. thinking about this and that. pfff.. I had a practical at 9 for electrical system and it was suppose to from 9-11. I woke up at 9.55am and thought of skipping it. But When I read the huge sign in front of my bed, " I could, I would, I WILL" I stood up immediately and changed and then ran to school. I reached at around 10.18am. then I knew the 2 guys there didnt want to allow me in, But it was a project that would accumulate our scores for the final mark. so they let me in and told me its not possible to finish it. Most people need 2 hrs to even finish the thing. but I finished the whole robotic project in 40 mins! the guys were basically shocked. they asked me " you finish? o.O" I said yea. then he asked agn " You did this yourself? " I said yea. and they were shocked and one of them whom was an asshole. he didnt want to let me in at first coz he said it was impossible. FUCK. impossible is nothing. I'm used to do the impossibles. People look down on me all the time. thinking it would never be me. I proved them wrong again, again and again. and they checked my robot and it worked! spechless. the total mark was 30, I was supposed to get the 30. but then came late and they gave me 20. wadever la. cant do anything. they are just jealous that i'm too good in soldering. HELLO~ I'm used to play with this type of electrical circuit board and all. I used to play with those all the time in mommy's shop and I always get scolded because mommy say its dangerous and its kinda smelly. HAHA. but it helps me now. I miss the guys in the shop where we used to talk about xxx stuff and laugh at stupid jokes. I really miss all of them. when i was soldering, they're the ones I think of. sighs. The days would never be the same again. take one day by a step.

Anyway, nothing much also. Dont have the mood to blog that much. sighs. How I wish I was in brunei now, I'll ask them over to drink with me. pfff.. anyway, there's gonna be a robotic race later tonight at our place. Me vs sip2's robot coz both of us have it. His stupid concept says " I used 2 hrs to make it, so mine should be better than urs" but in fact its bcoz I am good. we'll see! tell you guys the result later. ta~ but but, I still miss her. sighs. =(((((