endless notes to copy.

HAHA.. just got back from uni not long ago. was playing badminton there. 7-11pm. HAHA quite fun. but scary tho when u walk back alone and its pretty cold. but anway, like the topic says, I have soo much notes to finish copying. Oh well, I decided to do electrical system myself, so I have to copy the 1 week notes that I've missed. At least I think its worth it la. =) I'm glad that everything's going pretty well for me now. No borders, No people interrupting my progressions and all. weee~ damn happy now. =D

I talked with someone just now. His kinda closely related to me. I wouldnt want to name him out but yeah. Maybe I was a lil annoyed by what he did and what his doing atm. I just dont know why, some ppl just cant appreciate themself and what they've got. LIKE WTF LA! Already 20++ yrs old. Still dont know how to think for the elders. really la. COME ON. I'm not your daddy or your mommy,but at least, I can see what your mommy has really done for you. sacrificing evertyhing for her children. I know so, why? coz i've seen it and like I said, His closely connected to me. I know he wouldnt read this, but I still wanna let him know that its time to really start working. you missed the chance to get ur education coz you yourself is the only one to be blamed coz you didnt want to study. Regretting now is just useless. trust me it is. At least, learn from your mistake . WAKE UP!!!! and start working at least. Better than slacking around with the lifeless peoples around you. gosh. I know you dont know what to do now, But at least get a job and then think what to do. Your mommy has done really so so much for you guys already. sometime it just amazes me when I heard from my parents what she's done. grandparents and esp grandma is reli upset already. She tells me abt it all the time. It just feels so bad when she tells me all of this and I cant do anything about it. NOTHING. the only thing she wants from me, Is study well -> Get a good job -> Get good money -> Get myself a wife ( all the time she says, Make sure she works rather than pretty& useless) -> get children -> live a healthy life. Thats all my grandma wants from me. I hope it wouldn't be too late to accomplish all of this and she's able to see me grow up. I hope this day would actually happen. as for now, study study study!!!


AND AND AND, I saw once moderfarker in the street today! LIKE WTF LA! the weather was cold, she's actually pregnant with a really huge stomach, She wear sleeveless with the tummy outside of her shirt not only that, its very cold and windy, SHE SMOKES! WTF LA! chibAI! I was pissed but I coudnt do anything but stare at her with the " F*CK U I WANT TO KILL YOU" eyes. how can this be? some couples dream to have childrens and its now a waste to dat bitch. I dont find it rude to use that on her, or maybe she's not even worth being called a bitch.

aiya, pekchek* dun wanna blog anymore, the more I blog, the more I get pissed. tsktsk anyway, I just got a text and i'm pretty excited and happy now. everything's smooth sailing for me. weeee~ ai shi ni ah joy. *hearts*

Finally.

GOsh. I got to change my processs eng course to my electrical system one already. sighs. finally. Its really tough. the lecturer is a prof, and he talks freaking fast and he clicks on the slide show as if its for fun. SO FAST and he coverss basically one topic in like 5-6 clicks. WTF LA! so I went to look for a course advisor with Jason. He helped me a lot . oh well! haha.. Nothing much hapened today. got the bills for this and that today. NEed to pay up already. gosh. I miss the times in brunei, where I dont need to care about anything. shrugs. anyway, uni's going pretty well for me now. I think i'm useed to it already. anyways, all the best to everyone of you ok? =) take care!

PAY rent.

HAHa... this is the first time I actually pay rent to someone. its loike the first time ever. HAHA.. It feels Fkin bad when u give that person a large sum of money. Like paying to a loan shark or something. HAHA..

Serene told me this is how the girls in perth look. 9/10 when they go sun tanning! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!! and this is the pic of here and the city of perth. If u have any doubt abt perth or you would like to go perth for a visit, pls dial 1800- serene - hot and sexy - 622. she'll be able to help you! HAHAHAH!!! advertisment here for FREE.

I'm thinking of droping my process eng la. gosh. chemical eng is so not for me. Its damn tough. To those whoever wants to be a chemical engineer. ALL THE BEST TO you. trust me, you need it big time. I'll take electrical if i can. Try larr.. need to go change agn tomolo. dunno can o not. pray for me. =)

Nothing much today. WEnt to refill and restock food today. sighs. bloody stupid. a lot of things to carry. anyway. I guess thats all for today.

joy, i misssss youu.. =(

P = Professional Driver.. chong jxin.

j'xin says:
i can't even see properly
j'xin says:
he kip holding the steering
j'xin says:
cos he say kamu macam ular


HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!



j'xin says:
then he say " lain kali ada license sydah baru kamu langgar"
. Alon - Xian . ™ says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
j'xin says:
" officer put takut kamu driving arh"
j'xin says:
" aku pun takut"


V
. Alon - Xian . ™ says:
his hand got hold handbrake o not?
j'xin says:
ahahah
j'xin says:
got got
. Alon - Xian . ™ says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA
j'xin says:
when theere is this person running beside
j'xin says:
he asked me to slow down
j'xin says:
then wo bu xiao sin pressed the minyak
j'xin says:
he straight away pull the handbrake

damn tireddd!!!

Here's some pics that I wanna show to you guys. Wannabeee's! HAHAHAHA!!!..

GOsh! what a day! 9 hrs of lectures and tutorials. 8 hrs straight from 10am to 6pm! SHIT! its really tiring. VERY. VERY. i'm off now. tralala~ nothing much to say. everything's going pretty well. so yeah!

here comes monday.

youuu and ii ;

Here I am again. Had fun last night with billy, hannah and pao. I do have to admit, been quite a while since I get to hang out with hannah, but yeah, she's still her. I like the way she is. I'm really proud of her. The way she think things, the attitudes she has, REALLY REALLY amazes me. I know she wont be reading this, But yeah, That's what I think and know.

Just finish bathing not long ago. was having a convo with joy b4 I left. I din actually know what I'm really thinking now. It's really just _____ . I don't know what's the right and wrong word to use there. I don't feel good. after talking with her, I went to the toilet and I think I'm starting to screw my life again. I used to say "I QUIT" but in the end, that's the only thing who accompanies me when I have things to think about. that's the only thing that lights me up when its dark and I need someone to be there when there's no one. I know its just bad for me, But I do need its help. cant help it. sighs. Now I feel like I have tons of things I need to accomplish and do.


1) I miss home.

I miss the people living in it. Not the place tho. I miss being yelled at when I did some stupid mistake. I miss the screaming around the rooms. I miss the swearing we used to do. I miss everyone. I miss the time when I don't need to do anything at home. I just need to eat when the time arrives, Do whatever I want. Change my clothes all the time without even thinking that I need to wash them. Its just a total change over for me. Only now I realise how much a family means to a person. Never really did appreciate what I used to have. Everyone just think I'm rich and that's NOT true. They don't see what's in the inside. There's lots of problem I'm having with me now. I make decision with money pretty wrongly now. I used to waste food, I used to waste everything. Electricity, Water, .... lalala~everything. I never know how hard it was to actually pay for the bills. I used to think, It doesn't matter, use , use la! Its just tooo many things to worry about. But I hope that my brothers back home are doing great. Heard a lot of nice things that they are finally doing now. I'm glad. glad bros, glad.


2) My studies.

How am I suppose to motivate myself to study? I really have no idea. NO IDEA. I'm living with 3 freakin' clever people who I have to agree. They're pretty good in their studies who I can turn to for helps and problems I face in my studies. I wanna do good. MOm promised that If I do good in my next exam, I get to go back to brunei. I know she'll let me If really want to. but for me now, Money is also a pretty big issues. I don't wanna waste those money unnecessary anymore. It feels bad la. The tickets are not cheap at all. STUDY !! COME ON!! I know I can. but HOW? _!_


3) girls.

Like I said, Girls here doesn't attract my attention at all. I've no idea why. But yeah, just no. I know my aim here is to really study well and not thinking about other things. I've still been fooling around a lot with them, but then, its time to pick myself up and work my ass off. Girls? I don't need anyone of them. I just wanna do well, get my grades, fly back to Brunei as soon as possible ( thinking twice.. ) and get to hang out with the bunch of monkeys and not to forget, of course, Joy. I dunno how the feelings gonna be like. But no matter what, I'll still try to do all the best I could. she's really the one I cherish the most and she's just amazing. She gives me tons of motivation in everything I do, giving me suggestions and all. I really hope this would carry on and on.. Not to deny, Nothing seems to last forever like I've always said, But hell yeah, treasure it when its still there for you. and as for you, I really do cherish you. take good care and you know i misss you like ... . .. . . ummfff~ you know how much I do. *hearts*


4) money.

I should start spending wisely? should I? do it for myself and giving my parents less of a burden? I guess its up to me to do so. I'll think about that myself.





I guess that's all for now. need to get ready for the things that's installed for me tomorrow. I feeel freaking moody and sulking like a deep shit now. WHAT CAN I DO??? arrggghh... I feeel like swearing, but it doesn't help at all.