weehheee..

pao, in my room now. Eventho I know I would feel bad after she leaves. for god who knows why. Dranked beer with her. quite nice to have her by my side now. hehe. thanks pao! without u here wif me, I know I would feel like a shit! (= oh well. we took a few pics. vain as always. ta everyone. see u there on msn.

i'm actually screwed.

"DEEP SHIT. you should've said no, dont go."


really really..



Q.why???


A. Everything's NOT in the way I want it to be. This feeling sucks. Noone's here for me when I need to scream out load and curse. why say "go , have fun!" when my hearts says "NO, dont go! It makes me feel bad.". Your acting too "man-ish". Your the only one whose feeling the pain that noone does.



sighs................


A hell load of work waiting for me. HELL LOAD. so laters eveerrriiibbbadddii!

why do people look down on people?

Weird thing right? I'm used to that already actually. When I get something better than others, they will say "eh kalok" , "so lucky ah you" & so on and so on. I'm getting sick and sicker and sickest of it already.I mean like yea, for them maybe they think I did it with a blink of an eye. They just judge my book by their "pie balls" .like wth! They dont even know if I did or did not put effort into my things. Coz when ppl ask me, " eh got study , do this n that a? " I would most of the time say " no la, lazy. or, what for? " and ppl would tend to think i'm stupid. maybe I am. I seriously seriously doubt myself. I dont think i'm stupid. at least I dont go like someppl who act as if they know everything. Go take out their books in front of everybody and work like as if they can solve all of the Q and do nothing at home.some people are clever, and I cant say a fuck abt it. some ppl are just book worms where they just basically study study study for d rest of their fukin' boring/life-less life. I dont do that. NEVER WILL. Maybe I should listen to the others and think i'm lucky all of the time.should I? Or maybe there's one more option, get my degree with honours and bitch slap them with it & let them know none of the things I've accomplished are pure flukes. ummm.. I'll choose the last option.

I read something in billy's blog, I'll copy it here.

*i am so desperate now, tat i want to see alon and ahpao get their degree w/ honours so badly. im serious. proving people wrong is always fun. but thats not the ultimate. proving to yourself that you can achieve the impossible, is always far better*

I never once doubted ah pao's ability. NEVER NEVER. Altho I owes say craps to her, but she knows I dont mean it at all. She's as lazy as me. But she's clever. so no probs for her. Bill, Thanks for that.I'm very sure u can achieve what u want. U motivate me more n more now. thanks a lot.

Now for me, I need to prove to myself that I aint a stupid and I want to prove to all the "morons" out there who think A lvls and O lvls results that they got are super special. They can suck my **** . (whatever word fits in there). And I'll show them who they are messing with. My moral and everything is not degrading due to what they said, Instead, the motivate me to strive more and more & I'm sure it'll drive me thru another milestone.

Lets not talk abt that anymore.. lets go to the comedy section. As promised, the robot competition we had at home the other day, I won it quite convincingly. sip2 lost and made me and pao2 each person a cup of paradise. HAHAHAHAH!!! his robot was so funny, I'll upload this.So that all of you can see this! HAHAHHAA,Made us laughed like crazy. it was fun. sip2 said after losing , " wo modify sien, kai che rematch!" HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!







and yesterday, we had our first presentation for engineering profession, and this is the super cool sexy voiced sim bang lee look-alike steam steam mama's boy guy! MAde me and pao go crazy! I cannot help it, I just burst out laffing while ah pao struggles to keep herself from bursting out laughing. She bit her tongue and she keeps kicking me! HAHAHAHAH!!! here's the video and picture of the hot dude. sayang, got one impt part we didnt get to record it down., the Q&A session. shit! That was the best moment. =( HAHAHAHA.. oh btw, She's ah pao's New boyfriend. (= DOnt be shy pao.

another assumption ppl make.

Today I woke up and I saw this on my friendster's testimonial.


xiao mei
Posted 18/3/2007
hey you =)
you and vijean together?? lol
why i didn't noe?? lol
and your pics...makes me wonder how manny gf u have
lol
take care =)

-xiao mei-
xoxo


I really really dont get it. I do have sooo "much" gfs huh? HAHAHAH!! maybe I really do. gosh! I dont have any atm. thats my answer. Nice right? Feel free to hit me and u'll know how it feels to get hit by me! I'm single, hot and so available. lols. Crappy la! Maybe taking picture with a "girl" makes ppl think he/she is my gf a? wow. then i should take picture with angelina jolin? or maybe the bold hair Mrs. K-Fed, Britney Spears? Good idea!


I'm outta here after laughing like a stupid pathetic moron.

Happy Birthday Paul.

Last night was just another great night. Hahaha.. I just really cant expect myself to dance. gosh. but anyway, there's always audrey, michz and felix. They are really REALLY good. weee~ get to learn some basic from audrey and michz. They have like soooooo"banyak" patience to teach me. HAHA.. so it was pretty fun I guess, at the same time, VERY tiring. hehe~ didnt drank that much last night but the overall night was just great. thanks again. (=


I woke up at 4pm just now. Everything seems not finished yet. sighs. after dinner we'll work on our project. Eventho it doesnt carry any mark into our final score, but at least, we need to do well. I just send a text to paul just now. His the guy who works in my mommy shops. He've been helping out for like 15 years already. I dont treat him as my worker anymore. He's more like a brother to me. A real one. He gives me advices, fool around with, we fought each other. It was just incredible. My mom treats him as a son. He's just amazing, without him I say, There wouldnt be the business we're having now. His just a great guy. You call him up anytime, he would just say " aiya mafan one you!" but he would still give me a lift. Tooo much memories to recall, TOO much. but nevertheless, thank you for everything buddy. I know very surely that he wouldnt read my blog, but this blog is really dedicated to him! thank care man! always. I might no attend his wedding, but my heart would be there. very sure. love you man! big time!