sighs.

That's all I can say now. I feel so down right now. Everything just seem diff after spilling what I shouldnt have. Its something which happened and I cant change abt it already. Just dont understand why things have to be this way. I dont want thing to be this way but it alr this way. I cant do anything. I'm just gonna stay here and wait to see what gonna happen. I dont wan to do anything alreadyy..

Just heard from my mom that my bro's leaving for kl tomolo. Going to sunway college. sighs. I dont know. all of a sudden, my heart seems so dull now. Just having to spill out all the real fun times I had with my bros. Knowing how to really treasure them when they are not by my side, It really hurts deep inside. The last time I went back changed everything I think and know abt my brothers. They are really the best thing that I'm grateful I have. All I can say is good luck to him and I'll owes be by his side no matter what. Even if he did something wrong, I hope he knows i'll be in front of him and helping him out. take care bro. you know 3 of you mean a whole lot to me!

tireeddd

Got back pretty late last night with pao. Both of us was exhausted but we have to agree that we surely did have fun. I'm in uni again. My friends want to prepare for the presentation on tuesday and I've to study for my test tomolo alsooo.

Me and pao was walking around becoz we have to wait for billy to finish his "MEETING". Its quite fun shopping around only if u have sufficient amount of $$$ on ur wallet. Thanks to pao for not transferring her money and I have to share my money with her. At one stage we had to count how much money I had left to eat red rooster and I told her not to order exceeding that amount. It was funnyy tho. At least now we know how it feels like to walk around the city with a a few bucks. Its not that we dont have moneyy, its jst that we cant find a westpac atm machine and we dont want to get charged $2 or $5 for withdrawing our freaking moneyy.. At night, we went to lygon to eat with bill, slesh and his friends. Glad that I went to clubbing that night and I really wanted myself to relax. There were some shocking moments tooo. I was really exhausted after that but at least I did what I wanted to, which was to really forget about everything for a moment and let myself feel really looose-yyy. I'm really tired of guessing abt this and that already. I'll just let things flow normally. It kinda ruined my day actually.. but its alright la.

The next morning,(ooppss noon i mean) went to MUOSS office with Billy to sort his things out and then we went to our jackpot place! HAHAHA! and watched the fireworks at the festival and we lived a happily life after that. bye.

more work loads coming up

Havent been doing much really. Next week, the real pain begins. So many work to be done. Might be going to billy's place tomolo. Just hang out. A lot and a lot of stuff happened this few days. Made me feel like I'm crazy already. I was worried sick a few days ago also. pfff.. I dont know what to say right now. I'm trying my best now and if my best isnt good enough, then so be it.


I am me.

rambo!

Went to chadstone with my house mates just now. overrall it was fun. Had fun hanging out even tho it was only with my house mates. Didnt do much anyway. Went over to brian and tham's place just now. they asked me to go over so late already. and I had to walk like 20 mins to reach. Lucky there's pierre to send me home. If not, fuck! i wont go there again. bloooodyyy~ soo freaking far. We were playing pool over at there place but at least I still have some laughs. I'm tired of knowing that monday is coming up pretty soon. I'm still not used to the uni life again. siennn.. just gonna upload some pics we took the other day. took it from my fav neighbours phone.

I'm happy happy right now. Just feel really nice that things are going my way. (=

Oh yea, and not to forget! AUNTIEEE VEEVII!! Happy birthday!! (=

tired tired tired!

Just got back home. went to play some badminton just now. havent been playing for quite some time already. It was fun *i think*. HAHA! There's nothing much I want to say right now. gonna get a good shower and make myself a spaghetti. (= oh yea. gonna try uploading a pic i took when we celebrated with pao the other day. her birthday cake. If it doesnt show up, then blame the freaking internet, NOT ME! *ooppss and a picture of me! HAHAH! *

today is a bright new day.

Hello everyone. I installed the new live traffic thing. It tells me where the people who reads my blog come from. I'm quite suprosed actually. (= I'm glad that ppl still care to come over and read! HAHA! I'm boreed. Did nothing today. Just woke up not long ago and had my lunch. I'm soo lazy. Wanted to print down my notes but decided to print it later at night or maybe on the weekend since I've only got a lecture tomorrow.

Its pao's bday last night. Didnt do much with her yesterday coz I din know wad to do. but at least we did bought her a cake. (= plus she was busy. Some random ppl went out with her. OkOK. not random ppl. Its her nan xing pen you. HAHA.. Not one, Not 2, not tiga but 4! HAHAHA! long long said she's gonna get banged but she came back quite early also. So guess nothing happened other than her dinner with them.

Argghh.. felt really horrible last night plus I was quite shocked last night also. guess everything wasnt the way I wanted it to be. couldnt actually sleep last night. I was awake on my bed till 6ish I think. that was the last time i checked my phone and was suprised to see me starring on the walls and do nothing! I'm sure I gave everyone a bad impression. I'm used to that alr. But what's in the inside that counts right? nahh.. I dont think so. Without looking at the cover, only a few people would want to see what's on the inside. I was stunned the whole night. didnt know what I should do and what's coming up next... but i'm glad of what I've now. Like I said, Today is a bright new day. That's all I need and want. All I need is time. Time to prove odds wrong.

internet is sloowww!

The internet is so slow. my best friend finished using up the limit. Its so freaking slow now. I cant watch youtube and I cant surf the net that much. So the only thing I can do now is just chatting and blogging. So here I am now. Nothing much to blog about also. I'm boreeeddd.. Uni's gonna be starting pretty soon. This mondayy. I cant say I'm ready for it. I dont know, dont feel like doing anything now. Went out with CK and eason just now. Went to glen waverley to eat. Feels good to hang out with them again. They came over to our place to play another game of blackjack. Didnt win nor lose just now. So its useless playing. HAHA! but at least we had fun laughing. I'm just chatting chatting right now. I feel like going back home now. I rather be doing nothing than being here. how?

back in melb!

It was really a very tiring day. Didnt get enough sleep the day before because I was crazying . HAHA! Argghh.. Everything was going right at the wrong time I guess. I took a nap just now. After unloading everything, I feel much better alreadyy.. The room is clean and tidy! (= Its getting warmer and warmer alreadyyy so I got out of my bed. Gonna cook now. so laters~

I miss her.

kuching trip. (=

I just got back from kuching. Had my shower and here I am. Its pretty fun back there. Get to relax and drink everynight. Damn fun. stress freeeee.. Its really nice to hang out with all my cuz. Really had fun. I really did. I bought myself nothing because the fashion in kuching is just . .... ... . So just basically had fun at night. pubs and ktv made me feel really nice. the people I did hang out with are awesome.

Last night was crazy. It was the best valentine day. HAHA! My cuz and his gf has been dating for like 5 yrs and I just dont know wad to say. Its really really crazy. They had never actually had a actual valentine dinner. never did but they still live happily ever after. Me and my other cuz was their bulb. We went out with them on valentine's day. They wanted us to follow and we wanted to look for cheap but nice restaurant. We started looking for food at 6-7ish. Looked everywhere. The whole kuching I should say for food and Its all fully book. Is there actually sooo many couples? HAHAHA! WE even tried KFC. Its a 2 storey building and Its also full. LIKE OMG. ended up in some place crazy and my cuz's friends joined us for dinnerr.. We were so hungry after looking for food till 9ish. HAHAHA! and we ate so much food. was really nice. my cuz's gf wasnt even mad or anything. Its not abt how romantic you are on valentine that matters. Its about how you live everyday. I'm glad that he found a girl that was so understanding. Its not to say that becoz she's poor or something. She's actually from a really rich family and my cuz is just trying to save all his money., He's not willing to spend his money in flowers. HAHAH! argghh.. dont know what to say. I just feel happy for meeting this type of ppl. They even actually tot of just eating kolo mee.

Everything didnt actually went the way I want it to. I now have 2nd thoughts. I dont know if its worth the wait. I've no idea now.. It just killed part of my night. I couldnt understand how a girl thinks. I'm not saying she's mine or anything. Its just dissapointing. It is.. I dont want this to happen. It was suppose to be going my way. All I want is to spend this last few days with you but ... after this, what's gonna happen? only god knows.

selamat hari raya!

Hello everyone. I know I know, happy new year first of all! OKOK!! I know I know, I haven't been blogging much. HAHA. after all the complains, I've decided to blog again tonight. Its not like: 'I'm not gonna update anymore'. Its just that I'm busy! HAHAHA! Havent been doing much lately. Just slacking around and shit. I've got a really good news tho. I'm not gonna spill it out right now. I don't wanna ruin this special thing. I'm going to keep it to myself and I really hope everything turns out really well. I dont want to be dissapointed anymore. I'm sick of it already. I've been closely connected with someone who I think will shock the whole world. I think Mr. George 'Double Liew' Bush would be shocked too. (=

I'll update again as soon as I can alright. Once I get back, I'll have plenty of time to. So, for the mean time, I'll just enjoy myself! (= arrgghhh.. I just wish time could stop right now. When it seems so far away, I wanted to leave. Now its getting closer and closer, I feel like staying here. Why do I want to stay? I found a reason for me to stay already. I did. Yes, I did. (= but oh wells, I guess its meant to be but I think its never too late to. I rather be late than "never". 2 years seems to be a pretty long time to wait but I think as long as we have the patience and the will power to, Nothing's gonna stop us. Right?


Happy new year everyone once again! I wish all my friends the very very best and most importantly, good health! =)