STRESSES!

I really dont know how to describe what situation I'm in right now. I'm really very very stressed out. all the works and exam is so near noww.. I really dont know what to do. I just feel like swearing swearing and sleep all day long. I'm really reallly reallly tireddd.. Feel so fucked up right now. Its so near to the exam and I've basically very very little time to study already. Its all assignment, reports & prjects I've to stay in uni till late just to finish them. But the problem is, Its never gonna finish until week 13. WHich I've only have 10 days left to fucking study. I'm not as clever as some of them. Feel so fucked up right noww.. My mind is so messyy!! WHY THE FUCK DID I CHOOSE ENGINEERING? Its really pissing me off now. Feel like killing myself and forget abt all of this fucking work. I'm really sick and tired.

TIRED + STRESS = FUCK HELL!

argghhh

Damn, There's been a lot of problems for me lately. I had to do works and works, test and tests, report after reports. I'm getting sick of all of it already.. I dont know what's fucking wrong. I have to worry abt my work and have to worry abt how much money I spend. I dont know what's going on. I'm sick of going and asking for the bloody money already. pff..





Just had my oral presentation today. It was good. (= I havent had time to upload Brii's heroic stunt in the state library. I cant find it in my phone. It was one hell night to remember. Oh yea. My timetable is out. My exam starts from June 10 - June 20. So, people who wants to come over, the time is from June 20/21 - July 14. so yeah. ytou guys can make your plans already. I have another test on wednesday. I'm laszyyyyyy alreadyy.. so much frustration going thru my body now. 2 more reports due next mondayyy.. arghh.. Is that what I really want to do? hmm..

new chapter on my scrap book.

Argghh.. Had a great sleep last night after sorting my own stuff out. I've a clear head now of what I want and what to go for and so on.. I heard from billy that there's cheap air tix around. lung and viv, u you guys wanna see the price. go on http://www.tigerairways.com.au/ to check ok? I dont know when you guys are coming over and shit. so I cant do much abt it. I got the pics we took when we were celebrating CK's bday last week. I've uploaded most of it. I still have a maths assignment to go. We all had fun, cant wait for more funs to come. Might be going to seven this weekend. woohooo~ Lets party. I've no more troubles I guess. Its all goooddieee.. No point feeeling and thinking about the bad side when WE dont need to. right? Live life the smart way. Bobby aka bebz aka chibai wont be coming back for a long time. We all miss that lil thinggg..

bonfire turned into a bbq.

damn, last night was really crazy. I wanted to eat noodles and I asked pao to accompany me. She said she didnt want to it and she said she'll just accompany me. After finish cooking, we went to the garage and talked while she played pool. We felt cold and pao wanted to make a small fire to get us warm. HAHA. we went to just grab some woods and break em into pieces and started setting up the fire with newspapers. after succeeding, pao started to bring over small sausages and we had ourself a lil bbq! HAHAHA!

Had another blast the other day when we helped Ck celebrated his birthday the other day. last wednesday. Gonna try upload some pics when I got hold of them and the video we took last night. Everything's good until you think its not plus everyday is a good day, its just that some days are better than the others. Havent been doing much this easter. Left with only my maths assignment to go, which is due next thursday. (= I'm heading to the librabry soon with pao. Got nothing better to do. At least we get to have some charcoal chicken later. MMMMmmm.. Obviously, you guys can see I'm enjoying myself right now. I'm glad with what I have right now. So there's really no point thinking about this and that, I'll live the way I want my life to be. There's no point being a douchebag when I really dont have to. what's the point? what do I gain? nothing but at least its not a loss for me.

alon the FIREMEN!

OKOK. what I'm about to blog is something which I've thinking if I should blog about. If i blog abt this, I might get arrested or banned to get into rusden! HAHAH! That day, Me, mr.2 , lauban and paray went to play big small as usual in rusden. We were playing and playing and I was too bored. i was smoking while we're playing and I saw a detector on the ceiling. HAHAHAHA! And without making any second thoughts, I stand on the sofa and blowed smoke into it. Like a lot of em. Then nothing happened, I jumped down and conitnue to play.. who knows, 5 mins later. alarm on the other side of the place started to sound, Its like tuuuutt, tuuuuuuutt, tuuuuuuuuuuutt! and then few seconds later, the alarm which i blown smoke at started sounded. We all went crazy and was like running out from the exit door. Everyone took our money and walllet and ran off. HAHAHAHA! and everyone woke up in their pj. And 3 mins later, 2 huge fire tucks came and went in to see what's going on while we were outside and acting as if we just got home and didnt know what happen. Since then, I realise its not a fire alarm, its a smoke alarm! HAHAHAH!! after that we went back into the room and started laughing our ass off. Since then, they all call me firemen! PUUU!!

I'm going out soon. its Ck's bday! we're gonna go out and celebrate with him. I'm hungry alreadyyyy. I'm in uni trying to write my report. I cant be bothered. =((


p/s: actually u guys can tag on my tag board wad! you dont have to pay you know. It feels as if no one reading or something. ppuuuuuu.. tag ok! a hi would be good also. or you can say, eh alon, you damn hot! I dont mind! (A)

easter break!

I'm starting to enjoy my easter break already. DOnt have to worry about any assignment and test. feels so good. I've to get back to uni on wed and start everything all over again. Last week was pretty fun. we finished our project for steel and timber structures. it was fun working with them in the lab. Took us 7 hrs to actually finish them from 2 sheets of metals. had to do everything with it to make it the way its in the pic. Its pretty fun. I took quite a lot of pics and I'm gonna post it up. (= Went to watch movie at glen yesterday and it was crazying in the city late night again. Damn, at least i get to see the other side of melbourne. there's a lot of fighting around. We were eating in KFC and there was a bunch of of 20 ++ people battling it out just a few metres away. and there was about 50 ppl screaming and cheering them on. It was crazyy! I know how what's gang vs gang! HAHAHA! then the securities came and stopped it and they wanted everyone to evacuate. damn. we were still enjoying our food! then we went to yarra river and ate beside it. damn feeel!







measuring the sheets.






folding the sheets.






cutting the sheets.






after folding and cutting .






filing the holes we drilled.


putting rivet joints.


clmaping the sheets and punching the rivets.

that's wad we get.



7 hours of work!

hello!

HAHAHA. I dont know what to say also. Just feel like blogging. Been hanging out with tham, brii and pierre for the past few days. went to the city yesterday, hahaha.. it was a perfect day with perfect pairs! unbelievable. HAHAHAH! Bunaiii ahh! Been having late night McD's and big small games. its quite fun tho. rather than staying at home and doing nothing.

Life's good. (=

if it is so..

if it is meant to be, i cant do anything. =/

Safe flight!

I dont know what I should really be saying right now. Russell is flying in a few minutes time I guess. Just gave him a call and a small chat. Feels so ... pfff. All I can do is wish him all the best and hope he knows what he's doing. good luck!

Gonna upload some pics up noww.. Took some with pao in the city the other day while we were waiting for billy. HAHA

Here's a picture of a clown. That's wad normal human do in lectures.

sighs.

That's all I can say now. I feel so down right now. Everything just seem diff after spilling what I shouldnt have. Its something which happened and I cant change abt it already. Just dont understand why things have to be this way. I dont want thing to be this way but it alr this way. I cant do anything. I'm just gonna stay here and wait to see what gonna happen. I dont wan to do anything alreadyy..

Just heard from my mom that my bro's leaving for kl tomolo. Going to sunway college. sighs. I dont know. all of a sudden, my heart seems so dull now. Just having to spill out all the real fun times I had with my bros. Knowing how to really treasure them when they are not by my side, It really hurts deep inside. The last time I went back changed everything I think and know abt my brothers. They are really the best thing that I'm grateful I have. All I can say is good luck to him and I'll owes be by his side no matter what. Even if he did something wrong, I hope he knows i'll be in front of him and helping him out. take care bro. you know 3 of you mean a whole lot to me!

tireeddd

Got back pretty late last night with pao. Both of us was exhausted but we have to agree that we surely did have fun. I'm in uni again. My friends want to prepare for the presentation on tuesday and I've to study for my test tomolo alsooo.

Me and pao was walking around becoz we have to wait for billy to finish his "MEETING". Its quite fun shopping around only if u have sufficient amount of $$$ on ur wallet. Thanks to pao for not transferring her money and I have to share my money with her. At one stage we had to count how much money I had left to eat red rooster and I told her not to order exceeding that amount. It was funnyy tho. At least now we know how it feels like to walk around the city with a a few bucks. Its not that we dont have moneyy, its jst that we cant find a westpac atm machine and we dont want to get charged $2 or $5 for withdrawing our freaking moneyy.. At night, we went to lygon to eat with bill, slesh and his friends. Glad that I went to clubbing that night and I really wanted myself to relax. There were some shocking moments tooo. I was really exhausted after that but at least I did what I wanted to, which was to really forget about everything for a moment and let myself feel really looose-yyy. I'm really tired of guessing abt this and that already. I'll just let things flow normally. It kinda ruined my day actually.. but its alright la.

The next morning,(ooppss noon i mean) went to MUOSS office with Billy to sort his things out and then we went to our jackpot place! HAHAHA! and watched the fireworks at the festival and we lived a happily life after that. bye.

more work loads coming up

Havent been doing much really. Next week, the real pain begins. So many work to be done. Might be going to billy's place tomolo. Just hang out. A lot and a lot of stuff happened this few days. Made me feel like I'm crazy already. I was worried sick a few days ago also. pfff.. I dont know what to say right now. I'm trying my best now and if my best isnt good enough, then so be it.


I am me.

rambo!

Went to chadstone with my house mates just now. overrall it was fun. Had fun hanging out even tho it was only with my house mates. Didnt do much anyway. Went over to brian and tham's place just now. they asked me to go over so late already. and I had to walk like 20 mins to reach. Lucky there's pierre to send me home. If not, fuck! i wont go there again. bloooodyyy~ soo freaking far. We were playing pool over at there place but at least I still have some laughs. I'm tired of knowing that monday is coming up pretty soon. I'm still not used to the uni life again. siennn.. just gonna upload some pics we took the other day. took it from my fav neighbours phone.

I'm happy happy right now. Just feel really nice that things are going my way. (=

Oh yea, and not to forget! AUNTIEEE VEEVII!! Happy birthday!! (=

tired tired tired!

Just got back home. went to play some badminton just now. havent been playing for quite some time already. It was fun *i think*. HAHA! There's nothing much I want to say right now. gonna get a good shower and make myself a spaghetti. (= oh yea. gonna try uploading a pic i took when we celebrated with pao the other day. her birthday cake. If it doesnt show up, then blame the freaking internet, NOT ME! *ooppss and a picture of me! HAHAH! *

today is a bright new day.

Hello everyone. I installed the new live traffic thing. It tells me where the people who reads my blog come from. I'm quite suprosed actually. (= I'm glad that ppl still care to come over and read! HAHA! I'm boreed. Did nothing today. Just woke up not long ago and had my lunch. I'm soo lazy. Wanted to print down my notes but decided to print it later at night or maybe on the weekend since I've only got a lecture tomorrow.

Its pao's bday last night. Didnt do much with her yesterday coz I din know wad to do. but at least we did bought her a cake. (= plus she was busy. Some random ppl went out with her. OkOK. not random ppl. Its her nan xing pen you. HAHA.. Not one, Not 2, not tiga but 4! HAHAHA! long long said she's gonna get banged but she came back quite early also. So guess nothing happened other than her dinner with them.

Argghh.. felt really horrible last night plus I was quite shocked last night also. guess everything wasnt the way I wanted it to be. couldnt actually sleep last night. I was awake on my bed till 6ish I think. that was the last time i checked my phone and was suprised to see me starring on the walls and do nothing! I'm sure I gave everyone a bad impression. I'm used to that alr. But what's in the inside that counts right? nahh.. I dont think so. Without looking at the cover, only a few people would want to see what's on the inside. I was stunned the whole night. didnt know what I should do and what's coming up next... but i'm glad of what I've now. Like I said, Today is a bright new day. That's all I need and want. All I need is time. Time to prove odds wrong.

internet is sloowww!

The internet is so slow. my best friend finished using up the limit. Its so freaking slow now. I cant watch youtube and I cant surf the net that much. So the only thing I can do now is just chatting and blogging. So here I am now. Nothing much to blog about also. I'm boreeeddd.. Uni's gonna be starting pretty soon. This mondayy. I cant say I'm ready for it. I dont know, dont feel like doing anything now. Went out with CK and eason just now. Went to glen waverley to eat. Feels good to hang out with them again. They came over to our place to play another game of blackjack. Didnt win nor lose just now. So its useless playing. HAHA! but at least we had fun laughing. I'm just chatting chatting right now. I feel like going back home now. I rather be doing nothing than being here. how?

back in melb!

It was really a very tiring day. Didnt get enough sleep the day before because I was crazying . HAHA! Argghh.. Everything was going right at the wrong time I guess. I took a nap just now. After unloading everything, I feel much better alreadyy.. The room is clean and tidy! (= Its getting warmer and warmer alreadyyy so I got out of my bed. Gonna cook now. so laters~

I miss her.

kuching trip. (=

I just got back from kuching. Had my shower and here I am. Its pretty fun back there. Get to relax and drink everynight. Damn fun. stress freeeee.. Its really nice to hang out with all my cuz. Really had fun. I really did. I bought myself nothing because the fashion in kuching is just . .... ... . So just basically had fun at night. pubs and ktv made me feel really nice. the people I did hang out with are awesome.

Last night was crazy. It was the best valentine day. HAHA! My cuz and his gf has been dating for like 5 yrs and I just dont know wad to say. Its really really crazy. They had never actually had a actual valentine dinner. never did but they still live happily ever after. Me and my other cuz was their bulb. We went out with them on valentine's day. They wanted us to follow and we wanted to look for cheap but nice restaurant. We started looking for food at 6-7ish. Looked everywhere. The whole kuching I should say for food and Its all fully book. Is there actually sooo many couples? HAHAHA! WE even tried KFC. Its a 2 storey building and Its also full. LIKE OMG. ended up in some place crazy and my cuz's friends joined us for dinnerr.. We were so hungry after looking for food till 9ish. HAHAHA! and we ate so much food. was really nice. my cuz's gf wasnt even mad or anything. Its not abt how romantic you are on valentine that matters. Its about how you live everyday. I'm glad that he found a girl that was so understanding. Its not to say that becoz she's poor or something. She's actually from a really rich family and my cuz is just trying to save all his money., He's not willing to spend his money in flowers. HAHAH! argghh.. dont know what to say. I just feel happy for meeting this type of ppl. They even actually tot of just eating kolo mee.

Everything didnt actually went the way I want it to. I now have 2nd thoughts. I dont know if its worth the wait. I've no idea now.. It just killed part of my night. I couldnt understand how a girl thinks. I'm not saying she's mine or anything. Its just dissapointing. It is.. I dont want this to happen. It was suppose to be going my way. All I want is to spend this last few days with you but ... after this, what's gonna happen? only god knows.

selamat hari raya!

Hello everyone. I know I know, happy new year first of all! OKOK!! I know I know, I haven't been blogging much. HAHA. after all the complains, I've decided to blog again tonight. Its not like: 'I'm not gonna update anymore'. Its just that I'm busy! HAHAHA! Havent been doing much lately. Just slacking around and shit. I've got a really good news tho. I'm not gonna spill it out right now. I don't wanna ruin this special thing. I'm going to keep it to myself and I really hope everything turns out really well. I dont want to be dissapointed anymore. I'm sick of it already. I've been closely connected with someone who I think will shock the whole world. I think Mr. George 'Double Liew' Bush would be shocked too. (=

I'll update again as soon as I can alright. Once I get back, I'll have plenty of time to. So, for the mean time, I'll just enjoy myself! (= arrgghhh.. I just wish time could stop right now. When it seems so far away, I wanted to leave. Now its getting closer and closer, I feel like staying here. Why do I want to stay? I found a reason for me to stay already. I did. Yes, I did. (= but oh wells, I guess its meant to be but I think its never too late to. I rather be late than "never". 2 years seems to be a pretty long time to wait but I think as long as we have the patience and the will power to, Nothing's gonna stop us. Right?


Happy new year everyone once again! I wish all my friends the very very best and most importantly, good health! =)

I just got home. went out to help my mom out as usual and taking the whole afternoon playing snooker, I'm tired out now. knowing that i've nothing else to do, its better than doing notthing right? I'm going to singapore in a week or so time. m going on a shopping spree this time for sure. I need more ....................... I dont know. I'm gonna buy anything I like rather than regretting in the end. BRUNEI, what can you offer me? NOTHING.

2oo8'

Finally 2oo7 has just passed by. During that year, I had a lot of ups and downs. I've learned a lot. Its been a hectic year and all I wish in the end was a good ending and I guess it did turn out that way. I couldn't expect more that what I've now. I'm satisfied with it.

I've feel disappointed in the things I got in return. I deserved more than that. That's what I felt. I don't feel like bitching around here. I haven't been doing a lot recently. Been playing massive amount of snooker and helping my mom. I cant say I'm tired helping out from morning till night because its really harder for my parents. At least I know how it really feels like earning every penny I spent without thinking.

Friendship for me now seems to be in a world with no colours. I don't know who to trust, who to believe and who to hang out with. It owes felt out of pace. I rather go back to Aussie and enjoy my sweet summer over there. There's nothing better to just hang out with the people I know for a shorterr amount of time but I really felt comfortable with. We know how it feels like and I felt way better over there.

I'm just disgusted about 2oo7 and the time I'm having back in Brunei. I just want to go back and have a beer. how does that sound? Its great for me.


2oo8' for me would be a massive onee.. new year ; new resolutions.

p/s: to the people who cares, happy new year (: