everything's just not right.

I'm starting to feel more and more pain. Everything's just not right. shouldn't even at an instance, thought of letting go ..


Sighss......

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

My Liverpool desire.

Wanted a Liverpool customised size S home jersey so badly. Dunno why. Its like a sudden urge. Since lung can help out,

then I'll have it pretty soon. weeee~ cant wait.


LIVERPOOL ROCKS!

all over again. repeatedly & once more.

The title says everything. Nevertheless, its a decision I made and i'm gonna stand by it. I think I'm alright. Was kinda shocked and feeelinggg suckkkyy.. But I guess its ok, Its expected already one I guess. what to do. Maybe it was never meant to be. I feel really down, sad and heart broken once again. sighs. Cant expect much too. I was never there for her. shrugs. It feels bad but i'm gonna still live for myself and my family and and my friends.


Study is still my main priority. I woke up late today coz I cant sleep last night. Turning here and there. thinking about this and that. pfff.. I had a practical at 9 for electrical system and it was suppose to from 9-11. I woke up at 9.55am and thought of skipping it. But When I read the huge sign in front of my bed, " I could, I would, I WILL" I stood up immediately and changed and then ran to school. I reached at around 10.18am. then I knew the 2 guys there didnt want to allow me in, But it was a project that would accumulate our scores for the final mark. so they let me in and told me its not possible to finish it. Most people need 2 hrs to even finish the thing. but I finished the whole robotic project in 40 mins! the guys were basically shocked. they asked me " you finish? o.O" I said yea. then he asked agn " You did this yourself? " I said yea. and they were shocked and one of them whom was an asshole. he didnt want to let me in at first coz he said it was impossible. FUCK. impossible is nothing. I'm used to do the impossibles. People look down on me all the time. thinking it would never be me. I proved them wrong again, again and again. and they checked my robot and it worked! spechless. the total mark was 30, I was supposed to get the 30. but then came late and they gave me 20. wadever la. cant do anything. they are just jealous that i'm too good in soldering. HELLO~ I'm used to play with this type of electrical circuit board and all. I used to play with those all the time in mommy's shop and I always get scolded because mommy say its dangerous and its kinda smelly. HAHA. but it helps me now. I miss the guys in the shop where we used to talk about xxx stuff and laugh at stupid jokes. I really miss all of them. when i was soldering, they're the ones I think of. sighs. The days would never be the same again. take one day by a step.

Anyway, nothing much also. Dont have the mood to blog that much. sighs. How I wish I was in brunei now, I'll ask them over to drink with me. pfff.. anyway, there's gonna be a robotic race later tonight at our place. Me vs sip2's robot coz both of us have it. His stupid concept says " I used 2 hrs to make it, so mine should be better than urs" but in fact its bcoz I am good. we'll see! tell you guys the result later. ta~ but but, I still miss her. sighs. =(((((

Missing the ones I love.

Nothing much to talk about today. Its just a same boring day I've having I guess. Sighs. I'm really missing everyone of you back there. I wanna hang out wif all of you! pfff.. I miss the people I love. I miss the people I fool around with. I miss you joy. I miss you , you & yea of course, you too!

Here's some of the songs I like and I'm gonna share it with you guys! ta~








Words - Just for you joy. (=

electrical sys lecture pertama!

Like the topic says, it was my first lecture today and i'm reli shocked at how the prof. teaches. His realy good. His not one of those professor who uses the powerpoint presentations and just basically talk rubbish and clicks on the mouse as if it was "COOL". He writes on the transparency while we copy it down. its really nice you know. he explains everything in details. so he's the 2nd lecturer that I like other than my structural's tutorial prof. so yeah. great. lucky I dumped the bloooody process eng. pfff.. its not that easy. now I've tons of work loads waiting for me tonight. I need to do my profession project outline and then later might have to get ready with my maths stuff. still got loads to work on.

Who fugin told me that uni is when ppl enjoy the most? BLOOOODY~ Not true at all. Its no fun when you have such a big workload all the time. sighs. projects coming up in week 5 ~ sighs. so not used to this type of things la. I wouldnt even are abot any of these back then. =( but for my grades, really have to work. I just had my dinner not long ago. gonna bath and start working. ( :

Taaaaa~ everyone! take care!

1st day I slackkkkkkkkeeeeeeddddd~

ALLAH. Gosh. cant believe it started so so soon. shit. NO WORRIES. Still time to redeem what I've done. SO after I bath, study study study! =) Nothing much happened today. pao cooked our first chicken liver since coming to aussie and it taste really goood. HAHAHAH!!! ta~ miss everyone of u guys back there. take goodie goodie care ok? ('=

weeehaaa~

What should I say now. I think I'm really happy that I went out last night. Thankiew michz. HAHA! I find it really weird that we didnt feel akward at all. =) WE get to hang out and u still treat me very nicely. we went to eat dinner together at I dont know where which's located in chinatown. I get to meet new friends finally who are as crazy as I am. =D after more than a month or so. A long awaited one. I think they are a bunch of people who suites the way I am. We went to ktv after that, playing games and drinking while the others are singing. then after that, I get to go bubbles. I was kinda shocked when we had to actually queue up for quite long to just get in. and I can say, It was welll worth it! WELL WORTH. HAHAHAHAH!! thanks mich! anyway, outta here. Just woke up and its around 5 already. gosh! ta~

endless notes to copy.

HAHA.. just got back from uni not long ago. was playing badminton there. 7-11pm. HAHA quite fun. but scary tho when u walk back alone and its pretty cold. but anway, like the topic says, I have soo much notes to finish copying. Oh well, I decided to do electrical system myself, so I have to copy the 1 week notes that I've missed. At least I think its worth it la. =) I'm glad that everything's going pretty well for me now. No borders, No people interrupting my progressions and all. weee~ damn happy now. =D

I talked with someone just now. His kinda closely related to me. I wouldnt want to name him out but yeah. Maybe I was a lil annoyed by what he did and what his doing atm. I just dont know why, some ppl just cant appreciate themself and what they've got. LIKE WTF LA! Already 20++ yrs old. Still dont know how to think for the elders. really la. COME ON. I'm not your daddy or your mommy,but at least, I can see what your mommy has really done for you. sacrificing evertyhing for her children. I know so, why? coz i've seen it and like I said, His closely connected to me. I know he wouldnt read this, but I still wanna let him know that its time to really start working. you missed the chance to get ur education coz you yourself is the only one to be blamed coz you didnt want to study. Regretting now is just useless. trust me it is. At least, learn from your mistake . WAKE UP!!!! and start working at least. Better than slacking around with the lifeless peoples around you. gosh. I know you dont know what to do now, But at least get a job and then think what to do. Your mommy has done really so so much for you guys already. sometime it just amazes me when I heard from my parents what she's done. grandparents and esp grandma is reli upset already. She tells me abt it all the time. It just feels so bad when she tells me all of this and I cant do anything about it. NOTHING. the only thing she wants from me, Is study well -> Get a good job -> Get good money -> Get myself a wife ( all the time she says, Make sure she works rather than pretty& useless) -> get children -> live a healthy life. Thats all my grandma wants from me. I hope it wouldn't be too late to accomplish all of this and she's able to see me grow up. I hope this day would actually happen. as for now, study study study!!!


AND AND AND, I saw once moderfarker in the street today! LIKE WTF LA! the weather was cold, she's actually pregnant with a really huge stomach, She wear sleeveless with the tummy outside of her shirt not only that, its very cold and windy, SHE SMOKES! WTF LA! chibAI! I was pissed but I coudnt do anything but stare at her with the " F*CK U I WANT TO KILL YOU" eyes. how can this be? some couples dream to have childrens and its now a waste to dat bitch. I dont find it rude to use that on her, or maybe she's not even worth being called a bitch.

aiya, pekchek* dun wanna blog anymore, the more I blog, the more I get pissed. tsktsk anyway, I just got a text and i'm pretty excited and happy now. everything's smooth sailing for me. weeee~ ai shi ni ah joy. *hearts*

Finally.

GOsh. I got to change my processs eng course to my electrical system one already. sighs. finally. Its really tough. the lecturer is a prof, and he talks freaking fast and he clicks on the slide show as if its for fun. SO FAST and he coverss basically one topic in like 5-6 clicks. WTF LA! so I went to look for a course advisor with Jason. He helped me a lot . oh well! haha.. Nothing much hapened today. got the bills for this and that today. NEed to pay up already. gosh. I miss the times in brunei, where I dont need to care about anything. shrugs. anyway, uni's going pretty well for me now. I think i'm useed to it already. anyways, all the best to everyone of you ok? =) take care!

PAY rent.

HAHa... this is the first time I actually pay rent to someone. its loike the first time ever. HAHA.. It feels Fkin bad when u give that person a large sum of money. Like paying to a loan shark or something. HAHA..

Serene told me this is how the girls in perth look. 9/10 when they go sun tanning! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!! and this is the pic of here and the city of perth. If u have any doubt abt perth or you would like to go perth for a visit, pls dial 1800- serene - hot and sexy - 622. she'll be able to help you! HAHAHAH!!! advertisment here for FREE.

I'm thinking of droping my process eng la. gosh. chemical eng is so not for me. Its damn tough. To those whoever wants to be a chemical engineer. ALL THE BEST TO you. trust me, you need it big time. I'll take electrical if i can. Try larr.. need to go change agn tomolo. dunno can o not. pray for me. =)

Nothing much today. WEnt to refill and restock food today. sighs. bloody stupid. a lot of things to carry. anyway. I guess thats all for today.

joy, i misssss youu.. =(